I was not really the sexual sort of person back when I was still in college. My academics an****her major priorities did not allow me to explore my sexuality much, considering that I was too much of a goody-two-shoes back then. Being a geeky and often sociall****of guy, I never imagined that I'd lose my virginity, prior to having an actual girlfriend (heck, I never imagined that I'd even have an actual girlfriend at all).
It turned out that the sexual aspect of me would not just revolve around watching porno, fantasizing on crushes and masturbation. Around a month after my graduation from college, a female classmate of mine invited me out for a few drinks. This was the first time a girl asked me out for a night-out, and it was not just any female classmate, this was that campus hottie who was like a "crush ng bayan" in the university I went to. She was older than me by around two or three years, so she was kind of a "big sister" figure to me. She also considered me as a friend and confidante of sorts, since we were seatmates for a couple of semesters. Oh and she had a boyfriend.
I felt shy about hanging out with a girl like her because I don't think I'm the kind of person she'd go out with. She was supermodel-ish, had the figure of a beauty pageant contestant, and stood at ****". I was just a geeky bookworm of relatively short stature (my height's ****") and dorky disposition. I try to be nice to people around me though, so in the spirit of friendship, I willingly obliged to accompany her for a few drinks and chitchat. She fetched me one late afternoon in her car and drove us to a gastro-pub. Among the things we talked about were her (as of that time) recent breakup, as well as other stuff about relationships and what-not. She mentioned she needed an outlet for her post-breakup feelings, saying that she chose to spend time with me because I've been a swell friend to her. And then, she began to ask about my own background with regards to relationships, intimacy, love life, romance, et cetera.
Her questions sort of went like:
"You've had crushes before, right?"
"Did you ever have a girlfriend?"
"Have you tried courting someone?"
Eventually things got a little Freudian with her line of questioning. (We were both psychology graduates.)
"You've watched porn and masturbated, like other guys, right?"
"Ever got curious about trying sex with another person?"
Being psych graduates, we had a bit of an academic di****ussion over sex and sexuality over dinner and a few ****rive me home. While assisting me with putting on my seatbelt, she noticed t****y crotch was bulging and remarked that for a thin and short-to-average guy, I had a big member.
I felt flattered and a bit embarassed by her compliment. I was hot inside, and got even hotter when she asked me if I'd like to have sex with her. I noticed she had a few condom packet in the cupholder near her gear stick. Knees jittering, I asked her if she's serious about that proposition, because I was still a virgin. She only gave me a look and kissed me. On the lips. Fuc****id not see that coming. I admit that she was attractive, but I'm usually intimidated by girls like her. I didn't even date throughout my college and high **** years, due to my introverted, geeky nature. I used to think that I was "hanggang tingin lang" with the girls I crushed on back in college. And yet, here I was, in a car, with a hottie like her.
To make the story short, I spent around thirty minutes getting frisky with my "big si****ollege crush ng bayan" classmate. It was pretty much vanilla and relatively tame though - kissing here and there, blowjob, some breast-groping and nipple-licking/sucking, cunnilingus, woman on top , and a handjob to fini**** off. She then drove me home.
Being my first time, how did it feel for me? The word awkward comes to mind. It felt really awkward for me to receive physical pleasure from someone, aside from Mary Palmer ("Mariang Palad", i.e. my own right hand). I was so nervous, thinking that something not good might happen, like the condom breaking, or a passerby noticing us. With her body weight going up and down on me, it was also a little tiring especially to my knees. And female genitals tasted weird to me. Probably because it's my first time eating pussy, I think I almost gagged while eating her out (I blame the errant pubic hair), but somehow I got a bit used to the taste and managed to keep my tongue and lips on her pussy.
So, yeah. My first time was in a car. I also realized later on that it was a case of rebound, considering that she just got out of a relationship and was looking for a sexual outlet. I never really heard much from her after that "incident". I only found out a few years later that she met another gu****d a stable relationship, and got married. I was even happy for her that she found someone worth it. Sure, the first time is sort of memorable for some people, but for me, it just felt awkward albeit somehow satisfying.
