After doing everything I could think of in my past relationships, after sacrificing years and opportunities -- I have come to realize that for most people it is what you get out of a relationship; whether it be romantic, business or social. We are all selfish. So I asked myself: was I selfish? Can I be selfish? Alas, I had been awakened.
When I woke up, I felt lost. I was suddenly outside my comfort zone. Gone was the yearning to do what was expected of me. I felt I do not give a rat's ass whatever anyone thinks of me. At the end of the day it is only me, myself & I. So I have to be selfish. And I found myself here: wanting to serve myself at last.
So the big question: what am I looking for?
I want a man -- said it numerous times already. But how do we define a real man?
Guys, I am not looking for a partner in life; I am just saying that I want a man who knows he is a man in every sense of the word.
Responsible.
Focused.
Strong.
Confident (not conceited).
Real (to one's self).
Aware (of one's weaknesses).
It helps that a man knows what he is doing.
A real man knows that he should be respectable: the way he speaks, thinks, acts and relates.
Sex with all these factors makes it oh so good. How a man provides ways to satisfy a woman -- when a man knows that a woman should feel she is still his inferior no matter how strong & firm she is in the outside.
Fetish-wise, I respect the dom-sub arrangement; these things I am saying are all my personal preferences.
So to those messaging me, I am not just after a quick fix -- I am after the quality-time. I am not choosy; I have had guests from here who I am friends with now. It doesn't have to be sex all the time; sometimes, having someone real in our life matters most than just having that quick fix.
Everyone else pretends -- let's not do that here. I have every intention to be nice & sweet; just don't be a douchebag.
I may be a new selfish person than what I was before but that does not mean I am too self-centered. I just want to be able to have my fair share.
Some may get confused with what am ranting about, but there are those who can understand. I hope we all find what we're looking for here.
This is not a love story -- this is our life story; to live our lives the way we want without being judged.
JUST AN UPDATE: I have found someone here who I have found most of what I am looking for -- it may not be a love story that some of us secretly believe still exists; but at least the site helped me realize that there are still good men.
Others may judge that we are lost souls; that may be true -- but at least we are trying to find ourselves and accept what we really want & need.
Good luck to everyone. Thanks for reading.