Men! I don't pretend to understand them; I never have and I don't suppose I ever will. Most of them seem to think that because I'm TS I'll be so desperate that I'll put up with anything. Well, I've been through enough shit to last ten lifetimes and it's starting fuck me off big time. "If you're not serious then don't contact me." What the fuck is so hard to understand in that sentence?!? So what do I get? 'Hey, I'm from Turkey. Want to exchange porno e-mails?' No, I fucking don't!!! I just want a man who lives within 100 miles of me to settle down with. Fair enough, I'm not full of excitement, I'm not the life and soul of the party, I'm not drop-dead-gorgeous, but I don't deserve to be treated the way I am being treated. Nobody does. So many times (just this year even) I have been strung along by men, giving me a false feeling of hope, making me feel that I'm actually worth something, making me feel! And when push comes to shove they bolt. I am tired. In fact, no, I'm weary. It's the same story every, single, fucking time and I'm seriously questioning why I even bother. Of course the answer is simple: I want to love and be loved and I'll probably put up with shit enough to last me another ten lifetimes in order to achieve this apparently impossible goal.
