I think what I find, being a Top, is the endless hours upon hours of searching for a potential bottom that is a right fit. Not because there are many possibilities, but because so many of the profiles for female submissives online are fake. That or the endless emails trying to get to know someone and find out if it is the lifestyle they like and desire, or they are just a "bedroom warrior" looking to spice things up.
I am not a game player, I have been a Dom for over 15 years. As I still evolve My craft and discover new possibilities, I am looking for what is real and what excites Me in the Fetish/BDsm journey. I would like to continue a Top/bottom relationship but I think what I find tiring is finding that person. Dating sites of any nature make it hard to discern those from real, fake or just those wanting to spice up sex. BDsm is a lifestyle I enjoy, I do not live it 24/7, but I want someone whom I am with to enjoy and crave it as much as I do.
Time will tell if staying back in the vanilla world is a worse or better choice.....
