I've been going on the exercise bike for three days now and I've gained weight. I'm eating a breakfast these days; I've swapped high calory snacks for special K; I'm playing with myself until my heart is pounding. It's depressing.
I thought there might have been a lassyboy 7 miles from here interested in meeting up, but there has been no communication from him in over a week, so it looks like that's a no go. I thought there might have been a lassyboy a bit further away, but still in Scotland, interested in me. We were on the IM and seemed to be getting on alright, but I've heard nothing from him since last week and there's been no response to the e-mail I sent, so it looks like that's a no go. It's very depressing.
I don't know what to do. I don't know where to go to find my Prince(ss) Charming. The only guy who shows any interest is a guy from another f*@king continent who only wants photos and I'm not going to entertain him. It's all very depressing.
I'm wondering if it was worth coming out of my 'fortress' for this. All I want is to be loved. It's all extremely depressing.
