So for the past 2 months I managed to get myself fucked over by 3 cauc girls on 3 separate occasions. First 2 didn't hurt it was more like fuck and go. The last one however hurt like a thousand knives straight to the heart.
So after a month of dating she seemed like everything I wanted, we weren't similar at all but we both had strong feelings for each other and kept constant contact with each other, chats and cam you know 😉 She lives like 2 hours away, not a problem cuz i loved her and would travel miles for her. However her mom found out about us and did not like it. So by the end of the month she is supposed to go back to Aus (Fucking miles away...). I tried to keep things upbeat saying and making legit promises of keeping myself to her only and she was down for an even greater LDR. But last night something happened, she wanted to end it cuz she didn't want both of us to suffer and does not want to contact me anymore. I begged and pleaded in the video, told her that I've been working hard for our future and money and distance is never a problem but she stopped there and that was it...
I felt broken, I thought our love was strong enough to overcome everything but life will make sure to keep you in check. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows, its ugly and it will beat you down. LDR is the worst, fucking hardest sh** on Earth if you ask me.
Out of all my relationships, even those that spanned for almost a year. She is the only one to single-handedly motivate me to become a better person, have the strongest feelings for her even if its was LDR (And I always feared that), make me travel all the way to her and wish the best in life for her. All that she managed to do effortlessly in a month or so.
I wonder, is it selfish if I try to push for it even more? Or is it better to just let her go knowing that I may not find someone like her? I know there are LDR stories that do work out and I commend them for that tremendous effort and love. But is LDR really worth it and how do you truly know if the person is worth LDR? You know you can but can the other take it? I guess theres no real way to know...
So yeah, sad story over lol. Anyone in/had an LDR? How was it/is it going? Any tips in case i screw up again and end up in another LDR? xp
