Hi girls and anyone interested in reading about my little life so far,
I thought I'd start writing this blog as a way of passing the time but it'sgood therapy and besides I like writing just as much as I like talking. People seem to ask me for help and advice about transitioning, I have no idea why exactly lol. I'm always happy to help where I can and long ago gave up on going through my transition privately. The universe just isn't going to allow it. I don't think I am anything special but realise that could well be why people approach me for advice. I'm just a normal Tgirl going through normal Tgirl things. I'm out there and really confident within myself, in other words I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks, It just doesn't effect how I live my life!
My background has been a life of being a transvestite and I really hated it. The misery and unhappiness came from the fact that I didn't like the idea of having to change back into a boy...yuck! I'm terrible at being a male! I just had the misfortune of being born a generation before my time and growing up in a small town. It's a familiar story hey girls but it's one that didn't have to happen. I let it happen and since I'vealways been a bad girl and a rebellious heavy metal fanatic, I don't know why I kept my secret so long. I guess I'm just stubborn. Always the first to defend everyone'sright to be anything, I overlookedmyself. What happened, happened and I don't dwell on it. Someone I got to know recently but all to briefly (and I still care about a great deal) once said to me 'in time the past won't even be a memory'. She was right, I really don't remember how it felt to be that boy who was a girl every other day. The memories are someone else's and the bad feeling is gone.
There were some good times in the first 38 years.
I have been living as a female the last two years and haven't looked back. I have only just started HRT in the last few weeks and beginning to notice very small changes. Before that I had to wait after getting my referral from my GP for a place to open up for me at the gender clinic. The wait was frustrating but worth it in my case as I had a few personal demons to exorcise, well they were all one really. Drugs! but I'll cover that some other time. It's over now and it's sadly not an uncommon trap we fall into and it worries me a great deal that it seems to have analmost ten out of ten strike rate in the transgender community. We are beautiful in our own unique and individual way and we don't need to self medicate to exist.
So that's the back story or most of it. I've just got to sit back and grow into myself, call it a second puberty if you will lol. I've changed my name, all my documentation reflects my new gender except my birth certificate because you have to get something cut off in QLD for your birth certificate to show your gender as female, I don't know the rules in other states. My drivers license says I'm female and that's fine with me and who asked to see your birth certificate anyway. I'm having IPL treatment and have been having cosmetic tattooing done, eyeliner so far (it's brilliant because it doesn't run when I cry) and lipstick after Easter. It doesn't tickle girls! My treating doctor says I won't need breast enhancement surgery when I'm done so I'm kinda really excited to see what I'm going to get up top, 3 to 6 months on hormones and they will start. The other important thing to remember is stay healthy and keep fit and it improves everything dramatically. I'm also going to some facial feminization surgery but that'll be later in the year. I'll update my blog every couple of weeks to show my progress and for current pics of me checkout my profile.
Bye for now 💋💋
