Music and Musings: Closer -- A tribute

"You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Help me tear down my reason, help me it's your sex I can smell
Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else"

Basking in the soft afterglow of a very satisfying night while listening to nine inch nails is the perfect way to spend this lazy Sunday. My muscles, although remarkably sore, are relaxed. I feel like a huge pile of jell-o. Blessed be the wonderful multiple orgasms that runs through my entire being up until now.

Closer is the most primal song for mating. Anything and everything we shared is depicted perfectly in the powerful lyrics accompanied by the sensual growls and the deliciously sinful voice of hotness that is Trent Reznor. I admit to being agnostic as of late but damn if you weren't able to make me scream out a heartfelt hallelujia to a God I don't even believe in anymore. You are the closest thing to a religious experience I've ever had in my entire existence.

You're no Christian Grey but no truer words have been written because now I understand what it's like to have more. YOU are my MORE. Whenenver I'm with you, all else cease to exist. I am not that overworked and stressed corporate slave with dozens of things on my plate. I am not a worrywart trying to curb my OCD tendencies. I am not the girl worried about my pseudo midlife crisis. I am not pretending that everything is okay when the reality we'll eventually come back to takes us away from our temporary nest of reprieve. I am just me, alive and aware of the endless variation of sensations you make me feel every single time you thrust your hips into mine. There is one constant amazing emotion present in all of our interactions: the joy of discovering pleasure and pain. Unadulterated, free willing and sense defying rollercoaster of pure sexual chemistry. I will always be walking around in wonder with poignant thoughts of how lucky I am to have met you. Wearing my FFG proud and loud too ;-)

Waking up beside you is one of my new favorite things to do. (Doing you is the first on my list) I love touching you and kissing you and talking to you about anything and everything. I love how blunt and honest things are between us. I went into this with eyes wide open but you upped the ante by taking my hand and holding it as we explore and heed our carnal needs. So again, it just goes to show that you are my more. Because you've given me a lot even before I thought to ask. I will always cherish and treasure our memories. And thank you for giving me the most precious gift of all: your time.

Vivere senza rimpianti, mi amore :-)

"I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god"

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