"It's alright, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away"
Hearing someone sing that song to you is just so...heartfelt. Oh you know me too well to choose a Splender song to belt out but at the same time, your timing sucks. I'm sorry I couldn't be more than what you want me to be. I just have so much shit I need to sort out right now. This may be the most raw secret blog I've ever posted (well duh) but I'll post it anyway. I've always seen you as a friend. Hearing you say those words were a shock but in a way, we had it coming. I'm just not ready for anything serious. I love my independence too much to succumb to something so intense.
I hate that I wasn't able to reciprocate your feelings. You deserve so much better than me. You're this awesome guy who always had my back even when I thought I didn't need a wingman. You're my wonderful teddy bear, the one I cry to when life's a bitch. You're my tough guy, my partner in crime. You'll be okay. We'll be okay. I always knew you're more astute than me. But hell, we don't need the drama. Having you in my life as a constant makes it more bearable. Not having you in it would hurt. But not more than I am hurting right now for not being able to love you back. But I think God can explain. Coz I fucking can't.
