There was a time in my life when I experienced to make a very tough decision.... and doing it was very painful and difficult for me to accept... I was at a crossroad when I had to decide between "letting go" or to "STOP".
It's been a long time since I've been in a relationship, and it is very wonderful, yet, a painful experience to be in loved. Those moments we had.. the love, sweetness, and happiness we shared, were very unforgettable for me... We've been through a lot of ups and downs, but in spite of these "disasters"...we still made it to make our bond stronger. I do really love her so much... and I always thought that she would be my first and last... but things went out wrong. ='(
" It doesn't always mean that loving a person so much would intend that they're the right one for us." I thought that when you love each other faithfully, it would always be a happy ending for the both of you.. but I've found out that there's no such thing as "happy ending", because "TRUE LOVE" never ends. But I've found out that there's a big barrier that separated us.. although we are willing to continue what we have started and to fix all of these...it's very difficult to break that barrier. And because of that, I was able to make a very painful conclusion.. instead of continuing and fight for our love, I chose to "let her go". It's really hard for me to accept the fact.. I was able to asked myself "Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine?" But I think that we are destined to be just "friends". But although we ended this painful and unexpectedly, I don't want to say "goodbye", because it means "going away", and going away is "forgetting". Instead of goodbye, it is better to say that " I will let her go", not because I deny but I accept, and I know that this would be tough for me to do not because I wanted but because I have to do it. But no matter what happened, she would still be a great part of my heart, and I will love her still.
But now I realized that I've made the best choice... I was not the right one for her, and I know that there is more deserving for her love rather than me. This may took a long time for me to accept.. but I believe that when someone leaves, another person will enter and will lift you up in spite of those pains brought by the past. All I need to do is wait for the perfect moment.. and I know that it will happen in God's time.
I was so inspired to wrote this first blog because of a video that was tagged to me by my sister. It says there that love is like a traffic light, having three colors that serve as a guide for us to know when to do a particular act. Life must go on. Be patient and have faith. :-)
